Today I turn 30! August 6, 2009

Well, today is my 30th birthday. I can hardly believe it! I have been alive for 30 years, 3 decades, it really seems like a long time. I don't know why it bothers me so much, but it sure does! When I turned 25 and noticed wrinkles around my eyes....I sort of freaked out and I started making face cream (http://www.hip-threads.com/bodyherbals.asp). After that, I felt much better about my skin...this 30th birthday however....I ordered a bunch of stuff from arbonne in their line that reverses the aging process of the skin (supposedly). Maybe I am afraid of looking old? That could be part of it, who knew I was so vain? Certainly not me!
Maybe its because my body isn't as resilient as it used to be. I hurt my back a few years ago and continue to be plagued with pain now and then. (*though I have a grrreat physical therapist who saves me every-time I hurt)....then I hurt my leg pretty good when I started up running a few weeks ago. I went to my physical therapist and I have tendinitis! what? how did that happen. She says, you need to start stretching before you run, you need to make sure you stretch after, use ice or heat too. What? All of this just to run?! and it's only supposed to be down hill from here, right?
I think I worry about aging because I don't want to look old, but even more, I don't want to FEEL old. You are only as young as you feel. Or as Bob says on the biggest looser "you are only as young as your spine" and with all the back problems I have had...that rings true!
I am going to try to care for my body more in this decade...and I am going to get over this anxiety I have picked up over the last few years. i hate it!
Last night mu hubby and I reminisced about my last 10 years. We have known each other and been together since I was 21 years old. Its been my whole 20s pretty much that I have known him and loved him. We have enjoyed many vacations together across the country, we moved across the country together with no money and no jobs, we have been through a lot of ups and downs in our relationship. It has been wonderful. Marriage and moving to Colorado are my two favorite decisions in my 20s. I have a surprise birthday weekend coming up, I am looking forward to fun with friends and maybe family...with no anxiety and lots of good memories.